I just took an afternoon nap and woke up with that groggy disoriented feeling and then had some notreallyasappetizingasiwanted cambells tomato soup in which i sprinkled some parmasean cheese which swirled in the broth like apocolyptic weather patterns

Life is..
I don't know, constant, alright,
sometimes the scale tilts to good or bad, but nothing ever weighs down to the ground

shit, i don't write an entry for weeks and this is all i have to say? What is happening elsewhere. I know there is some war and some famine and glaciers melting etc. but I am just clicking away on amazon.com and doodling on my math folder. But I have been thinking about sort of heavy things lately and having lots of, I guess "deep" conversations, you know the ones that don't really help you or get you anywhere. But ok, this probably sounds insanely morbid but I have been considering that maybe death should not have such a bad connotation just because it is this total mystery to everyone. Like watching volcanoes and tsunamais and meteors crashing and all sorts of destructive things can actually be sort of beautiful, and it gets me to thinking if it is really so bad, even according to religious dogmas if you have been an alright citizen then the post-death experience is decent. I mean I guess people are all living from this slightly solopsistic viewpoint and think of death either in terms of sentimentality about loss or their own potential suffering. But just that everyone seems to accept and define death as the worst possible option and end to everything seems to cause a lot of needless stress. Like in Julius Caesar and most Shakespeare tragedies really, all the characters are quick to fling themselves against a dagger when shit goes wrong and I think it was because the prominence of religion and living for afterlife and all of that led to less fear of death.

See this is why i don't write in my livejournal, i'll just go on nonsensical psuedo-philosophical rantings

so anyway! for my 17 livejournal friends, (less than half of which i'm guessing will even read this) i'll get in the music postin game and share the only music I have been really thoroughly enjoying recently, besides billie holiday, shalome comrade (soviet yiddish insanity), animal collective rarities, the boards of canada album twoism andddd in a more nostalgic way the song what would the community think


(click on the picture if you want to download, this isn't the cover but one of Ariel Pink's sketches which I like way better)
Ariel Pink's Haunted Graffiti- Worn Copy

This album isn't super genious or anything but it's cool and cheers me up, it gives you a plathy sort of under a bell jar feeling. That actually holds true for all the music I mentioned now that I think about it, I wonder if that is any indication of my state of mind